Sunday, August 01, 2010

Total clarity. Sort of.

I've been in a major funk lately. Partially it was the stupid meds that I stopped taking and then I went into a tailspin. Partially it's starting dealing with the fertility specialists and facing all that fun and all the money and all that.

As far as that's concerned, we met for a consultation with the fertility doctor. He explained some of the options, but said it would be clearer once they did some more tests. On Friday they did an ultrasound to check out the innards of my ovaries (antral follicle count) and then they took some blood. We're going back for another consultation on Tuesday. In the meantime, I am trying to stay away from the internet because everything I've found is beyond discouraging.

In other news, I went to a week-long class this week and I'm feeling energized about this coming school year. I'm also feeling differently about some of my friends. I don't mean my first-tier, friends forever ones. I just reached my limit of what I want to deal with this year. There were some people I think I was hanging with mainly because I was used to them being there, but there was way too much drama and/or negativity. Also, "friends" who offer way too much "advice." I don't need people who try to tell me that I'm incompetent. Or say ugly things to me to kill any minute of joy I might have. I don't want to be around that anymore. I've never wanted to be that for other people and I sure don't need to get it from other people. So, I'll have to change some habits...

1 comment:

Lainey-Paney said...

How frustrating on the "I" stuff.
Keep us posted!